It takes a certain type of person to sit in the wrong exam seat. I always envisioned myself as the one watching sympathetically whilst smothering derisive laughter into a contraband tissue. Turns out it’s not so fun when you’re the Einstein causing the ten minute delay.
I walked in for the English Exam thinking positive thoughts- the ones your mum always tells you to think but you pretend you’re above until your walking through the exam doors conversing with your inner being. Yeah the usual. YOU ARE THE CHOSEN ONE. YOU WILL COMANDEER THIS PAPER LIKE THE LOVE CHILD OF BEYONCE AND JULIUS CAESAR. It did occur to me after a period of blissful ignorance that I was totally and completely lost in a room full of chairs. Seat number? Yeah….one of the possible 200 combinations. What can you do. I chose the only attractive option as the last one in- sit down fast and act like you own it. It was initially hysterically amusing to see the invigilators throw puzzled glances from their clipboards. The sort of all in the head, mentally exhausted laughter that generally accompanies internal screaming and rocking back and forwards. That was pleasant. The social execution less so. Why don’t humans like it when other humans turn and look at them in a group? Being escorted to the front like a terrorist with a poetry collection was not on my bucket list. It’s cliché but the aisle went on for sodding ever and all I’m thinking is how the earnest clipboard bashers look like they’ve either just died or are on their way out. They discuss the seating plan lethargically, making slow motion pencil gestures until I’m actually considering whether they will all make it through the 2 ½ hour exam. I Risk a glance behind me. A firing squad- 400 eyes. It felt like that scene from toy story when buzz jumps into the arcade game and all you can see are aliens right into the distance. Except instead of “Claw” each face says:
Today during that point in study leave where you’ve had 7 days off, been awake for 10 hours and still NOTHING’S GOING IN, I decided to go philosophical. When you think about it…it’s pretty awesome that out of the 7 billion+ people on Earth, you met the people you did meet. How easy is it to carry on living your life at a parallel to someone and never know they exist. Like when you look through a friend’s photos and see the life they had before they knew you, knew you were alive. Maybe that sounds arrogant but there’s always that theory “if a tree falls down in a forest and nobody is there to hear it, does it make a noise?” and I think it does. But I can’t help entertaining myself that every time you meet someone new you write a bit of the story they tell their kids or their grandkids or just their dogs after a few too many beers. Maybe they don’t remember it all, maybe the tree would still have made a noise if you weren’t there, but seeing as you were- that is some serious power.
I need to stop eating mushrooms on toast. Also Check out Hans Zimmer’s “Time” soundtrack from the film Inception and turn the lights off- for some reason the bass is better in the dark.
I don’t think I’ve ever had a relaxing bath. These people who write statuses on Facebook about their heavenly candle lit meditation bathing really fascinate me. “Just chilling in the bath for an hour with an Agatha Christie novel and a box of dairy milk”. An hour!? Yeah I think this too is an excessive amount of time to be spent lying in a pool of your own dirty water- to put it nicely. More importantly how the hell do they have the patience to keep it warm? The infuriating battle against tepid water is one in which I have no patience whatsoever. I start by running my bath to boiling point on the basis that.. last time’s bath went cold. So there’s the brave first step in and for a second I think “Yeah this is ni-“ then the boiling starts and your feet turn an interesting purple colour while your arms and legs jerk about – Don’t tell me you haven’t been there. First the uneasy shift from one foot to the other until you’re hopping around trying to get the hell out of the water but end up slipping on the sides.
As for chocolates and a novel well I’ve tried that but as predicted it lasted 10 seconds before I knocked them onto the floor simultaneously sending JK Rowling swimming whilst trying to rescue them. There must be some skill involved.
Anyway what I’m trying to say is that baths for me are overrated and sitting in cold water while trying to stop the dog from jumping in with you is not my idea of relaxation. What’s more, there’s always that awful moment when you realise you’ve remembered all of the interesting and unnecessary bath products but not the towel. That is where, what is known in our household as, the “Risky Run” occurs. Take an unfortunate, dripping wet individual and let them frantically scamper round the house naked in an attempt to locate the towel. Enter family members to the house and observe the risky runner’s panic level increase.
Many a time I have taken part in the Risky Run but never so traumatically as the other day. It was dark, between 6 and 7 in the morning, The lights were off and the landing light was broken. Silence- I wanted it to stay that way. After having a shitty bath upstairs I was faced with the Risky Run after discovering a lack of towel that I blame completely on another Risky Runner’s heartlessness. Holding armfuls of bath products I began to negotiate the stairs in the darkness, anxious not to get lit up like a Christmas tree as I hurried down. It was therefore unfortunate yet inevitable that I tripped over my own foot and gracelessly face planted 10 stairs before sprawling on the carpet, lights pinging on around me as the sound of a felled tree awoke the others.
I am now a shower person.
Organised people- some of the strangest, most admirable human beings you may ever meet. At school I am surrounded by them and it’s like being amongst a different species. Their meticulous highlighting of texts, colour coordinated pencil collections, Diaries to hand in their conveniently shaped blazer pockets all up to date and time tabled. Birthday presents often bought months in advance! How terrifying.
It seemed important to fit in so I did try, but unfortunately I remain the biggest scatterbrain to grace the planet. Some people envied my lack of stress as I glided into the music department for an early morning practice session, unbeknownst to me that the rest of the year were assembling in front of the head teacher for the GCSE English exam results. I was missed apparently. They sent out a search party and it ended up being a friend of mine bursting into my toilet cubicle shouting “YOU WALLY! DON’T YOU KNOW WHAT DAY IT IS?”. I said I didn’t, though my immediate thoughts were focused on-thank god I’d pulled my trousers back on.
It’s things like this that I really can’t seem to help. Unfortunately forgetfulness and disorganisation really do go hand in hand. These traits got me the title of Metro hoarder as I never remember to recycle my morning newspaper and sling them into my locker. On the last day of school it took two people 3 trips to clear the years worth of papers and much mocking laughter.
Organised people just don’t seem to understand this behaviour. Some find it laughable and others horrifying. I know a girl who has to fold her worksheets 5 times over before sticking them in, as beautiful as origami. Another who sets his wrist watch for 1 minute before the end of every lunch break so that it gives him a beep beep in time for him to assemble himself and sweep out of the room like a punctual Dracula.
How do you do it?
I guess OCD’s not for everyone.
Right. I’ve had my fill of starting things and never finishing them. It’s the 20th January and I’m planning to write every day until the next one. Tough? CHALLENGE ACCEPTED…
To anyone who’s had an embarrassing day….. I salute you in proud comradeship because mine was just a corker…
The first day in my new home town I thought I’d enjoy the new area. I’d Take a look around, visit the town and get my bearings whilst the rest of us unpacked. I seemed to have this rose tinted view on the whole experience. Until I went out. It took only a day for me to be asked what was in my bag by a stranger lacking shoes dragging a guitar across the pavement. To have a man scream at me “Oggy Oggy Oggy” out of a two storey building and finally for a friend to walk up to me and announce….
“Hey you moved here too. Welcome to the shit hole.”
As you can imagine, a few years on I don’t expect miracles when I step out of the door. I know the lady on the desk of the local shop will throw the change at me and there’ll probably be a chav smoking something dodgy on the corner. But today was just something altogether unexpected. There’s me and a friend walking up a street with the dog, having a chat in the sun. I was having a laugh and it seemed like quite a nice day, so when the dog stopped to do his business I offered to do the cleaning up as an act of my gallant and selfless nature. An act of kindness I now totally regret.
So I’m down on my knees getting it up whilst the friend holds the dogs lead who has disappeared behind a wall- totally invisible though I’m completely oblivious. I’m about to get the last of it into the bag when a jerky looking car pulls up on the other side of the road. Rather suddenly, a bloated, red faced man reels down the window and sticking his neck out of the car shrieks with disgust “YOU DIRTY GIRL!” across the street, seemingly adamant that in my squatting state and poo nearby I was in fact defecating the public pavement. I turned, ashen, towards the nasally sound to watch him shake his head and climb back into the driver’s seat before bumping away. People stared oh did they stare. Putting the offence into the doggy bin I just wanted to flee whilst evidently presenting my dog to the passers-by, who weren’t yet convinced that they shouldn’t incriminate me. Instead I was faced with no dog and a friend who was taking part in the kind of laughter that requires tissues and propping up as they’re no longer in control of themselves. Safe to say someone found it funny.
I found the dog pottering around behind the wall on the end of his lead which happened to be coiled up in the friends pocket. He’d been having a great sniff while I faced public mortification.
Never again will I be so gallant.
I’m listening to Joe Brooks on Spotify at the moment so if this is shockingly deep I’m sorry! Also this was on my old account so I thought I’d post it again just so’s everything is together. So sorry if I’m posting LOADS all at once.
Do dogs have a sense of humour?
I adopted a German Shepherd/ Great Dane cross puppy a few weeks ago. (I know! It’s a weirdass mix which results in a mahussive head and furry pantaloon legs) that’s beside the point….
However, of all the dogs I’ve had they all seem to have this infuriating humorous streak. They wait the entire walk before “doing their business” and 9/10 times it’s in front of someone evidently more popular, “cooler” and higher up in social teenage hierachy than I am. Is there any reason why they immediately run like Lassie to squat when they see a snapback?
For whatever reason when I turn and look sheepishly back at the passer-by there’s the puppy grinning from ear to ear. He’d been holding it in until then.
I ask you why!? because it seems to me that I have been subjected to dog trolling….
Imagine being stuck in a Jane Austen novel- how crap would that be. I speak from the point of view of the only family member to not enjoy her books. I’m not gonna sit on my arse and slag her off because she’s renown for writing classic literature and has gone down in history for her work and frankly I’m a normal teenager who watches Japanese game shows and draws goblins in her spare time. There’s no comparison. But what I can say is how uninteresting women’s lives seem to be after reading some of her work.
The endless small talk each character endures is enough to make you want to pull your own ears off. I know that this was standard in the early 19th century but seriously I thought school small talk was bad. Let’s get this straight, both speakers know when it’s “fill in a gap to make you look social” talk and you both feel it’s intense awkwardness and yet you still rabbit to each other about nothing.
“Hey how was your weekend?” We only speak every other week on a Monday afternoon and I know for a fact you couldn’t care less what I did on the weekend and are only talking to me because you’re waiting for someone more popular and want to seem angelic entertaining the peasants of the school society.
Yeah well I bet the cast of pride and prejudice would have killed for “How was your weekend?”. The film adaptations one has to sit through with an obsessive Jane Austen fan for a sister is just insane and so you really get the feel for women’s lives as they stroll through a paradox of hedge gardens arm in arm talking about their hopes to receive letters perhaps detailing a new arrival of a servant or something similarly invigorating. OH MY GOD.
It doesn’t matter what your views are on Jane Austen it’s hard to believe how often you have to wade through verbal crap just to talk to someone genuinely. I’m not an antisocial person- I like chatting as much as the next teen but sometimes ( and I don’t know if anyone else does this) I just get the urge to hide when I see a small talker approaching. I feel bad but it’s like an instinct XD The kind of people that seem intent on robbing the Breakfast news of their weather reporters.
“Ooh did you feel the cold this morning- they say it’ll lead to black ice all over the main road. You’d better get your grit ready!”
What’s more, it’s always the way that when you’re trapped in this web of dullness you can see your best friend coming from over their shoulder. They’re doing that grin like they’ve got a secret to spill but you bite your tongue and continue being verbally whacked on the head by the smalltalker.
You know, sometimes I think dogs have it easier…
one butt sniff and they’re done. :)